This week I feel like the longest week, and yet the shortest. This week was the most heartbreaking week and yet we still laugh and goffing around. This week too we shed our tears together because when you cry, I will cry too. We will cry too.
This is what we called friendship. This is by chance that we meet by choice that we became friends.
I keep remind myself that verily after every pain/hardship there is ease/relief. Yes, this is from surah Al-Inshirah. And I believe in every words that ALLAH swt said, because HE is the ONE who can keep HIS promise to us.
So my dear friend, I know how you feel, we all know how you feel, you cry, I cry too... we all have the same emphatic.
This is what I got from Hilal Asyraf, he wrote this and it relief me a little bit, not a lil’ bit actually, it make me relief a lots and lots. Make me happy and ‘terus semangaddd’
"Aku juga punya kesusahannya, punya ujiannya, tinggal aku percaya, itu semua daripada DIA, mustahil DIA menzalimi hamba-hambaNYA. MAka sebagai balasan percaya, yang aku lakukan adalah terus berusaha”
I think I owe this guy a lot. His words keep inspiring me to be a better person. May ALLAH swt bless him and his bride to be.
So, my dear friend, I hope you will be strong as Badang, may ALLAH swt bless you, don’t worry, HE will help you too. *HUG*
Lately I have this some kind of stress, maybe post-traumatic stress et causa blablabla, or just stress acute et causa blablabla. You don’t need to know lah kan. I think my body can’t take this stress and whenever I stress, I will feel nausea and want to vomit. Fortunately I have this strong stomach, so whenever I feel like throwing up, I can hold it back. Throwing up is not a good thing you know. Later it can cause malnutrition. hahaha... okay no kidding teha. Yes I feel like throwing up, nausea, lots of thing to do and blablabla. I am stress.
I will back to Malaysia this 5 March 2012, but I feel like I don’t want to. Yes, aritu aku eager nak balik, tapi sekarang rasa macam tak nak balik. Balik nanti pastilah kena soal jawab dengan FBI, pastu nanti ada wedding kawan aku, dah tentu aku akan pergi, pastu nanti jumpa kawan-kawan lama nanti ntah-ntah mereka berprasangka buruk dengan aku kan. Whatever lah people, yelah saya kan pura-pura innocent whatsoever depan mereka.
I am sorry if you think I am fake in front of you, I am sorry if my action is not synchronize with your logical and critical thinking and I am sorry if you think outside the box about me. I am sorry if you that hurt because of what you think. I know sometime us girls are illogical, irrational. Are we still friend or not? Am I forgiven or not? I am a forgiving person, I will forgive you of what you think of me.
Well. at least I have this thing called Ipod nano and Itouch, all I need to do is plug the earphone into my ears and turn it on to the maximum volume. That’s why I called them my boyfriends.
To have friends like them is a bless from the Almighty.
To have a friend like you is a mistake. Maybe we should never know each other pon.
Friends like them, only they know what we feel right now, no other have the same feeling as us. Thanks for everything.
