LESSON

I learn my lesson tonight… I think I can’t lie to myself anymore, I have to be true, genuine to myself. I can’t stand it when I break his heart, I even can’t watch him to suffer because of me or for what I said. He is so precious and I can’t lie to myself. I can’t lie and pretend like he is nothing to me. I can’t lie to myself that I am REALLY LOVE him. I love you… I wish I can say it out loud so you can hear me. I can’t pretend or lie. I’m not a good liar.

Damn it… All my effort to be as cold as snow, feelingless, are waste of time. With tears I’m writing this so damn post.

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