Sunday 28 February 2010

forgive and forget

as a human, everyone make a mistake,

not just ‘a mistake’ but ‘a lot of mistakes’

you are human, I’m a human, we are human

If I’m made a mistake, when I did wrong,

spoke to me, remembered me of what I’m doing

cuz we are human, born to support each other

make Rasulallah s.a.w as example.

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WORRY

trust me, I am so worry about him

owh my god, rasa macam nak tercabut

jantung bile fikir pasal dia.

seriously sangat risau,

kalo si bulat tu buat hal, nakal terlebih

I’m will grounded him for a week.

rasa cam aku ni mama dia plak

p/s; if he is too naughty, put him in cage…

kalo dia nakal sangat sampai tak terlayan, xpe, hantar je balik sini

but plz, pretty plz, jgn pukul dia k…

dat boy mmg sgt nakal

from mama Harlequin,

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Saturday 27 February 2010

AWAY

my sayang yang ‘notty’ sleep over kt rumah orang laen buat beberapa hari.

of course I will miss him so much

xde sape la yang nak kejut aku pagi2

hahahaha, my alarm.

but, its a good idea he’s gone for a few days, y la dah nakal sangat, bia dia stay ngn orang yang baik2,

jd  baik la kot nanti

my prediction

hope dia tak nakal-nakal

ikut perintah

and dengar cakap orang

and please…. jgn pukul harlequin kalo dia nakal terlebih

jentik2 j telinga dia, nanti dia senyap.

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Friday 26 February 2010

MY EVENING

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Just spending my evening with him

owh my gosh! he is so cute, ‘bulat’,

chubby, naughty, ‘manja’ n funny

chasing his nwe toy, a bell

rasa macam nak cubit-cubit je si sengal ni

cium-cium, peluk-peluk.

dont know how to express my feeling

walaupun dia sangat nakal, suke curi makanan

kucing lain, tapi dia sangat adorable.

“si sengal yang nakal dan manja, saya sayang kamu!”

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Thursday 25 February 2010

SAD MODE

JYPE just release a statement regarding Jay

he is no more 2PM members and abs no more

“SEXY LEADJA”

just quit, I’m sick

(in other word, kalo la mencarut tu benda baik

dah lama aku pon ikut serta)

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FUH!!!

okay, all settle

clean all the cage

hahaha agak2 mereka terharu tak

dapat caretaker yang freak dengan

KEBERSIHAN?????

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Wednesday 24 February 2010

TENANG

okeyh arini mereka baik

sayang korunk lebih

hurmmm, dalam ketenangan ni kadang-kadang

runsing, cemas, tak sedap hati pon datang

singgah menyinggah,

rasa, kalau boleh nak menjerit-jerit tapi nanti orang

bawah ingat aku kena histeria pulak

so banyak kan istighfar, muhasabah balik

and aku suka buka web ni, memang mantap

banyak nasihat dia, thanks to Nik Nasihah

yang kasi aku link ni

Langit Ilahi

try2 la baca dari web ni kalo korg berani…

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Tuesday 23 February 2010

SAYANG!!!

HARLEQUIN!!!!

pagi-pagi dah buat hal

okeyh bangun awal-awal, solat, bersihkan puf2 cat-cat

masukkan cat-cat dalam cage balik,

letak Harlequin dan Tom Tom kat cage lain-lain

Tom Tom dengan Julie

Harlequin alone

sapu-sapu, mop-mop lantai

sampai berkilat

settle, boleh gi mandi

but then…….

Harlequin tumpahkan pasir tempat puf2 dy

habis berterabur kt lantai, masuk dalam air dia, dalam makanan dia… GERAM!!

terpaksa la aku kemas balik

dah kemas letak balik dalam sangkar

settle

tapi, memang si harlequin ni nakal dan tak boleh duk diam, maka proses di atas pon terjadi lagi, tapi sebab aku ada kuliah pagi, aku bia je, bia dia duk xselasa.

pastu taw pulak dy yg tempat tu dah kotor n xselesa, taw pulak panggil orang soh bersihkan

but, no way, I dah lambat sayang, U stay la kat situ sampai I balik, he3

actually tu taktik dia nak orang, “let me out from this cage, SEMPIT lah!”

xboleh, sebab Julie tgh pregnant so kne duk cage besar.

nasib baik awak kucing, kalo anak usia 3 tahun…

aku goncang2 badan dia, bia bergegar…he3

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TAK BEST!!!

my nose = rhintis (sakit gile bole tak!)

bilik ak ni, tym maghrib je panas

ye la, matahari jatuh belah barat

bilik plg atas, kne la merasa kepanasan

tak pasal2 aku nyanyi lagu Wonder Girls

“I’m so HOT, HOT”

sebab panas, maka berpeluh

bila berpeluh ruam pun muncul

ada ruam aku pun gatal-gatal

dah gatal-gatal, kena la mandi

makanya, tak payah la mandi

kul 12 malam lagi

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Monday 22 February 2010

RANDOM

HARLEQUIN

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TOM TOM

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BOM BOM

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BOM BOM tgh merajuk DSC02337 DSC02334

JULIE

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aren’t they cute?? BOM BOM looks dirty

so AHAD ni nak anta dy grooming

yang laen bersih je.

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HARI TAK BETUL

Okay, I am really tired…

kalo boleh exaggerate aku akan cakap

“I’m really tired like hell!!!”

3 hari amek masa untuk setel hal2

kemas barang  n pindah ni

1st day after integrasi g pet shop beli

pasir kucing, balik kemas2

masuk baju dalam beg, buku dalam kotak

2nd day, angkut sume barang masuk umah baru

(kesian pak2 yang tolong angkut tu, barang banyak!!)

3rd day, masukkan katil,almari,meja

dalam bilik, and bilik ak plg susah!

katil ak nyer kaki kne potong, so jadilah

katil tanpa kaki,

masa malam before tu, pak2 ada angkut cat-cat

oleh kerana cage bom-bom sangat besar

mereka pon angkut trough roof semalam

panjat can monyet, xgayat k??

hehe, nway cage bom-bom selamat samapai

pagi tadi, bangun jam 4

cat-cat ngade2 nak keluar, lepaskan kejap,

bersihkan cages cat-cat

bagi makan

tengok2 makanan dah nk abes

bom-bom plak ikut je aku

try la duk diam2, hu3, bukan xnak layan

tapi cam pagi td cam kelam kabut sket

and I think Julie pregnant anak Bom-Bom

mesti kiut^^

tom-tom n harlequin xboleh duk diam

asek main j kalo lepaskan

bile tym aku sapu-sapu, kejar2 penyapu plak

and dorang sangat KOTOR!!

ye la, sape nak mandikan

nnt la aku mandikan weekend ni

Julie dah tergaru2, bom2 mmg kotor betul

harleqin mmg nmpk kotor kt kaki dia,

tom2 xnmpk kotor.

bom-bom macam dahgatal balik je.

kne cari sang betina untuk dia

anyway, disebabkan dorg, akupon xjadi penat.

memikirkan dorg yang kiut n manja

buat aku bahagia

thanks tu kak uttaq sbb kasi aku jaga dorg

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Thursday 18 February 2010

TERIMA KASIH

terima kasih ya ILAHI

kerana aku tahu, ujian ini tanda kasih-MU

menyedarkan aku yang terleka ini

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MOVING OUT

this week, my housemates and I

will move out from this house

cuz, “Tuan Rumah” wants to repair this house

sedih woo nk pindah

dah elok2 aku sync ngn rumah ni

ttbe plak kena pindah

ok, kiteorg akan berpindah ke

Jalan Tanjung Duren Selatan 5

dan rumah tu betul2 sebelah masjid Nurul Hikmah

pasni kalo aku x pi ta’lim xtaw la

kerat kaki fatehah ni, biar dia rasa macam mana

kalo dulu jrg pg sbb xde org nk teman, takut balik

sorang2, blah2, banyak alasan

so next time rajin2 la yer Cik Tehah

Cik Abah awak selalu pesan, Cik Mama pon sama

Cik Angah pon selalu, Aiman and Farah pun.

INGAT yer!!!!

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THANKS NIK

thanks to her, now I’m relief and gain my energy back

thanks to you, I love so much!!!

I will do as you say and try to search my mistake.

I told her that my study is not good as before

then blah2 with her about my problem n etc

so she give me this :

aku kdg2 jadi cam ko gak sbb tu, ble ak lagha ngan bende2 hiburan ni
aku tahu
aku susah nk belajar sbb aku tahu ilmu tu hak Dia
nape Dia nk bg aku ilmuNya sdgkan ak byk langgar 
suruhanNya sbb hal2 lagha buat hati aku rse bersalah
dosa itu sifatnyabila dah hinggap kat hati dia akn buat manusia tu rse bersalah sampai la satu ketika
bila manusia tu sendiri rasa seronok dgn dosa dia
kesensitifan hati terhadap dosa dah hilang
and makin susah nk patah balik sbb byk rse bersalah
aku ckp ni, byk nk tuju kat diri aku yg lalai sbenarnya
sbb ilmu tu dtg dlm bentuk cahayaandai hati penuh dgn titik hitam camne cahaya nk tembus masuk

she ask me about my opinion

of course la I agree with you

then we go blah2 again

and this is what she told me about Izzat Azmi tu

em
xde ape la teha
first
ko clash ngn dia keputusan yg btul
cuma mse ko clash ngn dia
ko x directly berkasar ngn dia kan
cam smooth break up je kan?
xde ape la teha
dia yg x leh get over lg
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xpe
time heals everything
ye la
kalau hal tu
ko nk lupakan
ia akn menybabkan ko makin ingat ada la
tp
kalau kita redha dgn apa yg dah jd
kita amik tu sbg pengajaran dlm hidup
insyaAllah
baru leh move on
so
ko jgn la susah hati
pasl studi ko
cuba muhasabah balik
apa yg x kne
apa yg jadi hijab utk ko kuasai ilmu
ada sbbnya
2 la... msti ad sumting wrong...
teha
manusia ni
di cipta dari dua unsur
tanah iaitu jasad
dan unsur langit iaitu ruh
jasad kita leh kita bg mkan dgn makann dunia
tp, unsur ruh kita pun akn lapar jugak
so,makann hati ni
either benda2 lagha or
peringatan2 dari langit gak

I ask her cuz she know me better than others

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CURSED

Am I cursed for what I did to him??

and if it true, am I cursed forever?

cuz I really need to be free

the past is the past

If you still mad for what am I doing wrong

the truth is,

leaving you is the best thing

ever happen in my life.

and I am glad I leave you

and you made me hate myself for leaving you

I cant blame you

Izzat Azmi, I am truly sorry

just take this curse back, please…

cuz I need to STUDY!!!

leave me, dont drag me to hell

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THERAPY

aku sangat marah hari ni

sangat marah

aku tahan kemarahan ni

tahan sampai sakit dada

sebab aku tak mampu nak cakap

nak luahkan kemarahan ni dengan

kata-kata kasar

mencarut bukan aku

showing my “middle finger” bukan aku

marah orang bukan aku

menangis bukan aku

merajuk bukan aku

marah orang balik, bukan aku

so sape aku??

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bila marah aku rasa cam

nak sparring jer….!!!!

trainning sampai letih

sampai lebam

sampai separuh nyawa

sampai injured

“I miss my training!!!'”

sebab bila marah at least aku

boleh sepak orang dengan betul

ada sand bag yang boleh aku kerjakan

ada target

ada pomse

aku siyes sangat perlukan

TAE KWON DO ni!!!

my therapy whenever I stress

this is suck here

and I miss my team

halim, acap, ayu, spongebob, sem, rin, arina

korang mesti dah naik level

Black Dan 1, 2, 3

merah

and me, still here???

tak aci…. nak jugak…

aku harap korang taw yang

sparring buat aku ketagih

ketagih nak lagi

nak betulkan chopping, backtrust, jumping turning.

kicking 360, nak buat pomse

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cuz when I do this, I am so happy

even if I made a mistake

even if I fall

even if I’m lose

this is my therapy

I feel relax

sweating

refresh

cool

confidence

and right now, I’m mad.

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Wednesday 17 February 2010

ONE WORD

PENAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTT!!!

Tuesday 16 February 2010

MEET MY BOYFRIENDS!!!

huh… lately many people ask me,

Fatehah, who is your boy??

okay, I will answer your question… Mr.X

this is my boys, not boy OK but BOYS

jaebum 

junsu2pm1

 nichkhun

Taecyeon36 

wooyoung

junho smoile

changsung

mereka kacak

yeah… my boys are 2PM!!!

handsome tak boyfriends aku?

kekeke

p/s: kalo angah ak baca ni mati aku

2PM’s lover,

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Monday 15 February 2010

AGAK KECEWA

ape kena la dengan Fatehah ni
okay, for this once
agak kecewa gak la my baby 2PM tak menang
Dance Battle vs SuJu semalam
its ok, thats audience vote anyway
but deep inside me, there is 2PM
hehe... and if Jay was there
they could hev done better
no, they will be The Best
I miss short PINK leadja
Mr. B-boy who can singing and rapping


and Fatehah plz dont cry.
mental retarded tol, cam kanak2...
gi sambung study PK
ok ni vid dorg...
just link, malas nk letak video
2PM vs SuJu

still waiting

Saturday 13 February 2010

OKAY I KNOW..!!

okay I know tomorrow I have pharmaco test...(gulp..!)
but I still wanna say this...

malam ni Dance Battle between 2PM and SuJu
for celebrating Lunar Years (Chinesse New Year)

apasal aku bole terfikir time tgh study
okey, hev to hold on till finish all these papers.


okay this is the last year 2PM's dance battle




still waiting,

14 FEBRUARY

when its come to 14 February
I will try to hold this tear
but I failed

time of death:
14 February 2007
11.30 a.m

cause of death:
Ovarian Carcinoma Cancer


yes... damn yes if I say no...!
damn yes if I'm not strong
and damn yes I dont like it

but abah did say to me once
"if Fatehah miss mama so much, just pray for her and recite al-Fatihah as a gift"

and yes I did, and I prayed for her to comeback too
to come to me as before
cook for me,
teaching me about life
how to sew
how to cook

if you can't comeback.
would you come in my dream mama??
for once, please
I wanna hug you
I wanna kiss you
I wanna say "I'm sorry"
I wanna sleep on your lap
cuz I'm miss you like hell

instead of this
I hope you got the bless from HIM
and stay with 'wanita-wanita solehah'
cuz I will keep praying for you
abah,angah,aiman and farah miss you also
aiman n farah have a good voice when reciting
you must be proud
and mama baru is good at us

someone says "when he/she die, that means their responsibilities here are finished"
and I always think like this before, "did mama finish her responsibilities?"
and now I will say yes you are.

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A NEW LOOK

After a few weeks I'm not updating this blog,
now I try to give it a new look
with new template, header and footer.

no more feedjit traffic, counter, clock n so on
'buat serabut je sume tu..!'
make it simple...

and also I give her a new name
"PIECE of SOUL"
got influence by BLEACH from "Soul Society"
"Snow Queen" no longer exist.

owh... I got new signature

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