Monday, 17 September 2012

WHADDAFISH...!

Kadang-kadang benda yang aku suka tak semestinya orang lain suka dan benda yang aku tak suka pasti ada suka. Macam aku, aku ini memang tahap dewa suka dekat indie rock band, or metal band, alternative song dan aku kurang suka benda-benda yang terlalu mainstream ni... ewwww... mainstream is sooo overrated, padahal takdelah best sangat pon, kata seorang hipster.

Mungkin orang boleh label aku dengan cara pakaian aku ni ala-ala vogue, tapi cara aku tak sama macam orang lain. Contoh kita ambil, aku pakai shawl, dan ada orang lain pon pakai shawl, orang lain pakai shawl dengan skirt labuh siap ada ikat pinggang dengan baju neon colour tak cukup lagi owh skirt pon neon colour. Ala-ala fashionista. Tapi aku tak pakai macam tu. Aku pakai shawl dengan sweat shirt and cargo pant, or jeans or whatever yang aku rasa ada gaya ala-ala indie or vintage value.

Dan... orang mungkin suka gila bila update status facebook dia dengan penulisan yang panjang-panjang macam nak buat cerpen. Tahap yang bila kita pakai smartphone nak scroll ke bawah punyalah lama mak oii. Tapi aku pulak paling panjang pon tiga baris sahaja dan ayat yang aku tulis tu mungkin hanya aku dan beberapa orang kawan je yang faham. Sebab bagi aku, kalau semua orang faham dengan ayat yang aku tulis, tak private lah kan. Dan kawan-kawan dekat facebook tu yang TAK KENAL pon ada. Strangers. Tapi kalau follow aku kat twitter banyak lah benda yang aku merapu kat situ.

Atau... orang yang dah bercouple ni memang suka geli-geli eh di facebook? Pastu kalau marah dengan pasangan masing-masing mula lah merapu meraban, marah-marah. Awak sangat tak menghormati orang lain. People judge you know. Awak kalau awak nak buat macam tu, saya unfriend nanti awak mengamuk. Baik awak buat twitter, awak nak mengamuk pon xde orang kesah. Tapi make sure time tu timeline takde manusia.

Owh semestinya... Manusia ni memang tak pernah nak puas hati. Aku paling geram dengan manusia yang amek gambar dalam restoran pastu caption "Eeeeii... kitew dah mokmok lah!" eh dah tahu gemuk pergi restoran fast food, hentam makan banyak-banyak, pastu GEDIK. Pftttt... atau dengan jenis manusia yang kurus kering buat status "Ermm... ittew dah gemuks, naik 2-3kg" okay sila pergi meninggal SEKARANG... I demand you!

Tapi itulah. Mungkin ramai orang suka pakai baju tudung, top and bottom dia warna yang striking, ada yang suka tulis status macam nak buat esei SPM, ada yang suka couple geli-geli di home mereka sebab mereka rasa couple tu sweet dan sememangnya ada yang suka poyo dia gemuk padahal tak pun.

Dan saya sebaliknya dari anda.

paperKELIP : You know what, my university came up with new term and regulation this semester. All the students must wear formal attire. We can only wear Blouse, Kemeja (Shirt), Slack, skirt and baju kurung. No more jeans, and t-shirt!!! And... I have to wear baju kurung like everyday to the class.This is some kind of torture.

Sunday, 16 September 2012

HONEST

I just being honest with my feeling, but being honest doesn’t mean you are going to get good respond or feedback.

You maybe will get disappointed with the feedback.

Friday, 14 September 2012

GO AWAY...

"Semoga mendapt jodoh yang baik-baik"

Okay... Please go away. I have my own life to lead and for your information, I don’t need anyone to find a future groom for me.

*Dalam diam aku menangis di pojok dinding... Goodbye*

Wednesday, 12 September 2012

HARD...

hard time

It’s seemed very hard to forget my fantasy. It’s so hard but I will never let my tears fall through my cheeks. It’s just a fantasy teha. The fantasy that’s not even real.

So I decided to ask my books, "Will you go out with me?? You can’t say no anyway, I will stuff you into my bag and bring you out. Then you will go out with me aite?"

Fortunately, the books said, they love to go out with me. They want my sticky hand to hold them and my finger caress the pages when I read them. They said, I am so kind to ask them the question because they love me too.

Maybe the books are more fantasy than him but my medical books never contain any fantasy material. So get back to reality... He is just a mere fantasy.

paperKELIP : People said time heal everything.

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Thursday, 6 September 2012

CONFESSION...

I have someone I like. Yeah I really like him. I like him so so much.

I confessed to him last month and that was the stupidest thing that I have done. And I am going to back off. I mean, I am REALLY REALLY NEED to back off.

This is sad. This is not reality. I like him but yeah he don’t seem to like me back and I embarrassed myself by confessed my feeling to him. And he is not even live in my real life. He just a fantasy. He is someone I met over the internet and he has been my pal-friend since then. So, he is not my reality aite?

My friend knew that I like this guy and she said that he is just a fantasy, he is not reality pon teha. Maybe I should forget about him or just be a good friend.

Maybe I like him, and maybe I am not pon. Maybe this feeling lied to my brain and my lust for love compromised with my mind to cheat my sight about love.

OR

Maybe I am like him and love him from head to toe.

Either way... This is not reality. This is a mere fantasy.

and I read about this Perigi Cari Timba thingy in I Luv Islam, and I think I just break a rule of syariat which is, If I want to confess my heart to someone, I should use a third party to send my message to him. And... apa yang aku dah buat adalah aku sendiri yang confess kat dia. Dan aku telah memalukan diri sendiri.

Baiklah teman... I will erase this feeling by having an affair with my books. By the way, in love with books is not that bad aite? Maybe I should just marry with them. Ahahaha.

paperKELIP : When I was little, I was so naughty, boyish and stubborn. My late mama will scold me when I did somethinf terrible as a girl. she said, "Fatehah, mama gave you the name as u are a girl, I not name you as Fatah okey, please act more like Fatehah not like Fatah".

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Tuesday, 4 September 2012

ALAHAI AUNTIE…

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Hello and annoyinghaesaeyoo :)

How are ya everybody... I dah ada kat JEKARTAHH sekarang ni uolls. Eh GEWDIKK NYER, tak syuker tak syuker ... Okeyh sila lempang diri anda sendiri Fatehah Malik... ehem ehem betulkan suara dan kembali normal. Gambar di atas tiada kena mengena dengan arnab okay.

Okay... Last week I visit my auntie to beraya (of course). Then she asked me "Teha dah ada boyfriend??", with a shy shy cat smile, I answered her back "Of course lah tidak ada Cik Su" but in my heart whispered "Of course I don’t have any and I am proud of it".

When she know that I don’t have a boyfriend, she was like freak out a bit like "What!! you don’t have a BOYFRIEND! Why oh why". Tapi tiadalah pula my aunt ni menjerit. Then she said "Okay, I will find you a husband. There were a lot PETRONAS guy who didn’t marry yet". Owh... So that’s why she asked. Aku hanya jawab dengan "Ok, find me a handsome one" dalam hati dah... alahai Cik Su, susah-susah je.

Hmmm... Alahai my aunt nih. I have someone I like but... I don’t know. And I have a lots of unachieved dream too. Please don’t bring marriage subject to me because I have a very ridiculous idea about it and I just 23 years old (eh bukan ke itu umur untuk dah berkahwin?). And if she knows that I don’t have and intention to get married, I think my whole family will keep nagging me and find a 'calon' like RIGHT NOW.

Dan sebenarnya... Arwah mama dah pesan suruh kahwin paling awal umur 24 paling lewat umur 27. Itu lah agaknya kenapa my aunt macam freak out bila dengar aku tiada boyfriend.

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