You Know and You Can't

I like someone.

But then I know it's useless.

It's not like I fall head over heel for him.

It just... I like him.

Not  a lot, not a little

more or less... I like him

I wanna tell him that I like him.

But I will not jeopardize our friendship

over this 'LIKE' feeling.

I want to blame my hormone for this.

I hate this complicated feeling

Can I just not have this feeling

Can I not having any feeling at all

This stupid feeling only bring harm than good

It contagious... It make me fly

If I fly, I can't plant both of my feet firm to the ground

Then I will become useless.

Your emotion, it's not wrong, but your action??

Sorry feeling, but this one, you have to forget,

better hurt now than later.

Almost A Year... What did I learn?

Almost a year I didn't update my blog.

I was, I am busy, busy to live a life as a student.

I passed all my theory exam, yay to me. 

I struggled to pass the exam and I proud with myself

finally she can do it.

I graduated and I become a Koas

I travel from one hospital to one hospital

I learned from the doctors, the nurses and the patients

I met new friends, I become friend.

The cycle continue... and 

I met this awesome doctor, my mentor.

He taught us to be a tarzan, when we outside

we need to think, don't depend on your book

depend on your instinct, use your logic

think outside the box

feel the patient, empathize them

make them comfortable

you are their DOCTOR.

you are a DOCTOR, don't make them think otherwise.

I am a DOCTOR, Insya-Allah.