KENAPA AKU MINAT KOREA!!

Assalamualaikum dan selamat malam semua...

Ingat lagi tak dulu masa SuJu-M datang Malaysia untuk buat persembahan Hari Belia, ramai artist-artist Malaysia tak puas hati sebab penaja layan diaorang macam dewa?? Mesti ramai tak tahu tapi isu ni hebh dalam twitter. Of course the artiste who cause the trouble got antis.

Well, aku tak nak bukak cerita pasal isu ni, tapi aku nak cakap yang aku minat giler, minat tahap dewa mati hidup balik kat K-POP!!! Kenapa minat K-POP bukan M-POP??? sebab...

1. Sebab diaorang handsome, kacak bergaya, cantik dan sexy (sexy??)

2. Diaorang bukan lah artis-artis segera yang tiba-tiba popular melalui rancangan reality tv, walaupun diaorang dah menang dalam apa-apa show, diaorang kena training bertahun-tahun (paling minimal 2 tahun), contoh DBSK.

3. Diaorang punya lagu best-best dan catchy. Iyer best. Contoh paling mudah, lagu Wonder Girls “nobody”, SuJu “Sorry Sorry”. Sebut jer, semua tak bosan dengar.

4. Idol-idol dan celebrity Korea ni, tak reti nak malu taw tak. Lawak dan menghiburkan hati, tapi still ada manner diaorang.

5. Diaorang pandai menari, latihan yang bertahun-tahun yang diaorang terima tu dapat memantapkan skill tarian diaorang, bukan setakat 3 bulan jer.

6. Pokoknyer memang aku ni gila korea, Personal Preference kay.

Biasanya, kepada siapa-siapa yang telah memperlekehkan K-POP idols atau cuba-cuba nak bad mouth diaorang, mereka akan dapat ramai anti fans, don’t you ever underestimate the power of K-POP fans, better you all senyap sebab peminat K-POP ni global. Tapi aku takde lah troll orang yang kutuk K-POP, aku baca je tweet dan komen-komen fans. Tapi, you try bad mouth my JJ or My DBSK, my 2PM, my SuJu, my Wonder Girls, aku troll ko habis-habisan, Heee~

HOW I WAS NEARLY GET KILLED??

Night yeorobun!

Yeah baby, I can’t sleep...

OKay tajuk kat atas tu memang tak boleh blah dan tak equivalent dgn apa yg aku cuba nk sampaikan. Tapi sebab aku bosan dan takde kerja nak buat, sambil-sambil tunggu azan subuh, datang lah idea ni.

Before semua orang dalam rumah aku ni tido, aku, Ida dan raihan telah menonton sebuah Banjun DBSK (drama pendek) yang bertajuk “Dating On Earth” demi meluangkan waktu yang ada. Dan pelakon dalam cerita tu of course lah My DBSK! nak dipendekkan cerita, cik Raihan kita ni dia minat gila! Fan GIRL of Park Yoochun or Micky Yoochun...

( OMG HOT!! *MELTING DROOLING*)

So with happy face we watched the drama with peace and laugh like crazy...

 

Tengah syok-syok menonton drama ni, mestilah ada Romantic Scene between lead actor and actress kan? But unfortunately, the lead actor was Micky...

 
 

All of sudden, cik Raihan kita menjerit dan wajah dia berubah jadi macam ni...

Kita orang dah takut and kecut perut...

Tak semena-mena, cik Raihan pun...

Arghhhhh!!! kita orang kena belasah teruk dengan cik Raihan sebab dia bengang dengan actress tu, dah lah Micky tu romantic, dengan muka dia yang handsome tu, cairlah every girls yang tengok kan. Orang paling teruk kena belasah adalah Ida, sebab dia duk sebelah Raihan. Korang jangan ingat Raihan tu tak kuat, korang belum rasa. Muahahaha. So, moral of the story, don’t underrated the power of fangirls! And that is how I’m nearly get killed last night. :p

BTW, if I show this CF to her, she probably will kill me for real. hehe.

 

Gahhhhh!!! the CFs are funny and Micky is too cute! okay I need to sleep, anyeong!!!

MY UNPRODUCTIVE DAYS DURING FASTING MONTH

Assalamualaikum... Happy Fasting and Salam Ramadhan everyone!!!

Today is 14 of August aka 14 Ramadhan, and 10 days to go before my feet step on bumi Malaysia yang kucintai! So currently I’m in Jakarta, spend my holidays with classes and books (books?) heee~

Try korang bayangkan betapa tak produktif nyer lah hidup aku sejak-sejak bulan puasa nih, kelas dah lah tak full macam hari-hari biasa, tido memalam (tido malam ke?) dah lah after subuh, bangun tengahari, my biology clock dah ting tong atau dengan kata lain, siklus sirkardian aku dah macam hamster dah, siang tdo, malam berjaga.

Bukan nyer nak beramal ibadah time-time bulan penuh barakah ni. Adoyai fatehah malik! Tak taw biology clock aku nih boleh betul balik atau tak bile dah sampai Malaysia nanti. How come I’m gonna face my daddy, when her 1st born daughter who is 22 years old now act like "HAMSTER", okay hamster is cute at least.

Lagi tak produktif bile tak boleh tido bukan nak study, duk layan variety show from Korea and korean drama. Running Man  (RM)lawak gile, bila dah gelak berdekah-dekah macam Banshee memalam buta, mestilah memerlukan energy yag lebih, oxygen consumption pun bertambah, lagi lah tak mengantuk. So nasehat aku untuk orang yang baru nak layan RM ni, jangan tengok memalam, tengok lah pada waktu tengahari time-time tengah mengantuk, confirm korang akan kembali bertenaga.

Untuk itu, aku akan cuba untuk menidurkan diri di awal malam sekitar jam 11 malam (awal ler tu) supaya pagi-pagi aku bole bangun awal, kemas-kemas bilik, pergi pasar. Aku akan cuba tahan mata aku dari tidur pada waktu siang supaya di malam hari aku mengantuk awal. Boleh lah saya mimpi JJ saya tiap-tiap malam. I love you JJ, my perfect guy.

daa~~ my cat dah ajak tido, and how in he** aku nak tido sekarang sebab aku tak mengantuk.

paperKELIP : Finally, I can write back in this blog with happiness, the last incident, lets forget it, let them go, just like when Jay out from 2PM and my beloved DBSK disband (well I still mourn a little, love 5 of them, AKTF!)

I HATE YOU

I hate you,

I am sorry but I really can help myself from hating you.

Hating you is the best thing I can do right now, you are the worst person I ever met, the worst among the worst, yeah you are. I wish I never met you and I regret I met you. You are the biggest mistake in my life. I HATE YOU, now and forever. If you don’t know why I hate you this much, well you should know what you did. If you too dumb to admit your mistake, defend it. I hate you, I don’t trust you. And I am fuck up. Sorry, but I don’t feel sorry for you. Yeah I hate you. I hate you and I wish I can say it out loud straight to your face, I HATE YOU SO MUCH.

I hate you, sincerely with all my heart.

LETs EM’ GO…

I am a person who learn from my past. I have this Post-Traumatic Disorder (penyakit yang aku reka sendiri) since I lost Her. Since then, I am lost, self-conscious aku hilang, and the result is I became who am I today, as you can see ( if you can see inside me lah)

Yeah... Its hurt but, you know sometime you just to let it go, let it go baby, don’t keep it to your heart.

Last February, Kak Utaq and Abang Firdaus asked me to take care of their cats which were Bom Bom, Bimbi and Milo. They are cute, very cute and I love them so much, of course I love Bimbi more. But you know what, no matter how much I love them especially Bimbi, Kak Utaq will come and take her back. So, I set my mind, my mental, I will let them go, I have to, if not I will grief. Oh yeah... last Sunday they took them back. I am sad, but I can’t cry, I have to be strong I have to let them go. I have to let my princess go (Bimbi). Love Bimbi.

I know, its hard to let someone go, I felt it before, to let my mom go is hard, it took almost 3/4 of my heart, to grow it back to normal is not easy. I’m in love with her and she was my big lost. Even if someone asked me about her, I will hide my tears in my heart. Come on, I can’t cry in front of people, I’m not weak, even if I’m shaking I will stand it.

Recently, I break up with Lukman, I let him go, and that is my choice, I choose to let him go. I am moving on, yes moving on. Yeah I am sad, sad too sad... But to let people see my sadist condition is not good too right. I am broken. Bak kata ayat-ayat novel cinta tu “Luka lama baru nak sembuh dah dapat luka baru”, Luka lama yang aku try nak rawat pon tak terawat sebab banyak sangat komplikas dia, baru nak sembuh tapi penawar tu racun rupanya.

Trying to erase my “BIG LOSS” then come other “BIG DISEASE”. I know I am not stable, but I am trying to stable myself. I laugh, I smile, I talk, and I even do something that I don’t want to do, pegang katak dan potong kepala dia misalnya (Ingat aku nak ke potong kepala katak tu??) then aku rela darah aku kena amek time praktium PK, dan sampai sekarang efek samping tu terasa, tangan aku belah kiri ni asyik kebas je, agak-agak saraf kat bagian tu tak sembuh lagi kot. Dan-dan aku rasa aku agak ada masalah kejiwaan sikit hari demi hari, aku rasa aku ada simptom-simptom Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (tiap-tiap hari aku akan sapu bilik aku tiap 10 menit sebab aku rasa bilik aku kotor), then Bulimia, aku akan rasa aku ni cam Panda or Queen Latifah after makan banyak-banyak, in order to compensate, aku akn workout tak ingat dunia. Seriously, buat masa sekarang ni tak menganggu hidup aku lagi, tapi aku takut aku tak boleh kontrol diri aku sendiri. Harap-harap aku boleh control.

Well... aku rasa semua ni sekejap je, insya-ALLAH aku normal sebab aku yakin ALLAH swt itu ada untuk menjaga dan menstabilkan hidup kita kalau kita berusaha kan. Maybe I am not 100% heal, but I am here, study, listen to people, happy with myself, family, friends and you (tak taw sape). Owh and you in my dream, it nice to know that you are not like what you look. Hahaha.

Let go and moving on... Please babe, I know its hard, but life is not in our hand. Its not a bicycle handle or car wheel, we can’t control it. The least you can do is pray for the best. Looking you like this make devastated.