OWH DEAR

Owh dear Jumaat nih dah exam integrasi 1… Tapi mood nak exam tarak ada lagi. Conpius dengan jadwal yang asek berubah kali.

SYAWAL 2010

Kali ni aku nak mengabdikan kenangan Syawal 2010 dalam belog nih. Jadi akan akan membiarkan gambar-gambar berbicara. Ayat tak bole nak poyo lagi lah kan. Haha.

Raya tahun ni best sikit sebab my oldest brother balik Terengganu, balik dengan isteri dan dua orang anak-anak dia yang cumil.

On 3o Ramadhan, kiteorang satu keluarga balik kampung mama kat Kuala Terengganu. Kat sana kiteorang telah singgah menyinggah kat masjid terapung dan masjid kristal :

Masjid Terapung

Depan Masjid Kristal

 

On the first syawal, macam-macam makanan yang kiteorg satu family prepared, satay, rendang, lemang, kek coklat,biskut-biskut raya, macam-macam lah. The best thing ever aku still dapat duit raya walaupun dah besar gajah, bak orang-orang tua kata rezeki jangan ditolak. Here are some pictures on the first raya arituh :

First Syawal

(my over protective bro… hik3)

Second Syawal kiteorang satu family dah balik rumah, aritu aku jumpa balik dengan geng-geng lama masa zaman sekolah. Hehe walaupun hanya beberapa kerat jer yang sempat aku jumpa at least terubat rindu kat kawan-kawan kan.

Second Syawal

(dengan budak sengal) 

Third Syawal tu ada majlis kawen sepupu aku yang paling aku rapat. Kak Ha aku selamat diijabkabulkan berasama abang Izz, abang aku bila ag ek?? hehe.

Third Syawal

(the cameraman)

(anak dara sunti)

Tak banyak sangat lah gambar kawen Kak Ha dengan aku, tak ingat nk amek dengan Aiman aritu hehe, cameraman tak rasmi si Aiman neh.

Then masa cuti 1 Malaysia aritu jalan-jalan gi rumah ex-classmates kat Kampung Bukit Payong sampai Kampung La. Lama tak jumpa minah-minah nih, rindu sangat. ^^

7 Swawal

  (kat rumah intan)

But sadly, kat rumah kawan-kawan tak sempat amek gamba borak sampai tak ingat dunia. Nak-nak bila ada Lukman, lagilah kiteorang menyembang lama. Yelah, mamat ni kan tinggalkan kiteorang dulu pindah sekolah lain. Hehe.

Lepas lepak-lepak rumah kawan-kawan kiteorang menyinggah kejap kat Pantai Bukit Kluang, ramai gila orang petang tu. Agak-agaknya orang yang balik kampung mandi-manda kat pantai tu. hehe.

(ada orang sudi amekkan gamba kami)

 

 (angin kuat sangat habis rambut dia terbang, kena pegang baru tak terbang, haha)

Actually kat Pantai ni ada bukit, pastu bawah tu ada gua.. Lawa, tapi tiadalah aku sempat nak teroka-teroka amek gamba atas bukit bagai, dah lah ramai manusia, hari pon dah lewat petang. Tapi my cousin yang kawen aritu ada wat photoshot kat sini. Aku ada lah mencilok gamba beliau dab suami dari facebook sepupu aku sorang ag.

Dekat jer pantai ni dari rumah aku. 10 minit tak silap. Hehe. Tetiba promote pantai ni plak kan.

Pape pon this raya memang DAEBAK!!!  Semua ada raya kali ni. Harap-harap raya tahun depan pon dapat beraya macam ni lagi. Peace.

paperKELIP : nak balik lagi MALAYSIA!! tak puas lagi cuti…. sekarang pon HOMESICK.

SURRENDER

Dia kata lagu ni dia suka sebab dulu lagu ni macam apa yang dia rasa. Dia kata dulu dia dengar lagu ni and teringat kat aku. Haha. Dia kata dia takut kat aku dulu and dia merelakan aku ada bf, nanti kalau dia confess takut kena marah. Saya mana taw awak simpan hati kat saya.

Yelah kan.. Walaupun saya suka kat awak dulu, manalah saya boleh cakap, “Weyh aku suka ko” dah lah saya ni perempuan. Awak plak takde keje lain selain dari mengacau saya hari-hari kat sekolah dulu. Sampailah kan suatu hari awak cakap “We are enemy forever”. Terus kita tak bertegur, senyum pun tak.

Awak pun pindah sekolah. Saya rindu awak tapi saya buat-buat tak taw. Mana boleh cakap kat orang laen saya suka awak, nanti tak macho lah kan. Haha. Saya suka dengar lagu eminem, tapi lagu-lagu dia buat saya ingat kat awak.

Walaupun masa tu saya ada bf, tapi saya still teringat kat awak. Tak patut sebenarnya saya terima dia sebagai bf saya. Betul cakap orang tua, tak abes sekolah lagi jangan menggatal.

Then saya single, saya bahagia sangat saya single. Saya ada facebook, saya try search awak tapi tak jumpa-jumpa. Teringin nak berkawan balik dengan musuh sejati masa sekolah dulu. Suatu hari kakak angkat awak yang rapat dengan saya dulu tanya saya kat fb, “Tehah ingat lagi kat Lukman?”, “Mestilah saya ingat kat dia kak” huhu. Pastu kakak bagi facebook awak kat saya, saya add awak approve saya. Jumpa lah balik musuh lama dulu.

Kita pon add ym masing, tukar no phone. Tanya-tanya khabar. Kita kawan balik. Haha. Bila teringat balik zaman sekolah dulu, bodoh jer rasa. Then suatu hari awak confess kat saya yang sebenarnya awak ada hati kat saya. Ehmm, mula-mula saya tak nak terima sebab saya takut, saya rasa saya lagi suka single. Saya cakap kat awak nanti saya fikir balik. Saya pon bercerita pasal awak kat kawan-kawan saya aka my housemates. Diaorang pun memberikan nasehat-nasehat. Hehe. Diaorang cakap “Why don’t give it a try, mana taw ok”. Saya yang penakut nih pon setuju ntuk terima awak. Jadi officially nyer kita pon BF and GF.

Kita dah 5 tahun tak jumpa, lepas jumpa awak saya rasa lain jer. Saya lupa dulu awak dah tinggi tapi saya tak tahu awak bertambah tinggi atau tak, tapi saya ingat lagi cara awak gelak, cara awak cakap. Awak cakap saya dari dulu sampai sekarang sama jer, takde yang berubah. Agak nyer, kalau arwah mama hidup lagi, mesti dia happy jumpa awak. Si nakal yang dia jaga dulu dah besar sekarang, dah jadi baik sikit tak nakal sangat dah. Haha.

Saya harap jodoh kita panjang sampai ke akhir hayat. Banyak benda yang terjadi sebelum kita dapat jumpa balik kan. Harap pengalaman yang kita jumpa tu mengajar kita jadi lebih matang.

Saya harap saya boleh buat-buat tak taw bila saya rindu awak. Jakarta ni jauh dengan kelantan, kita kan kena study. Hehe.

paperKELIP : 9 oct 2010, one of my best friend will be a bride. Congratz babe.

GIRLFRIENDS…

The best thing when you hang out with your girls is that you won’t miss Him too much. Haha.

Fatehah plizz focus, no missing missing kay!! Apelah pompuan neh…

paperKELIP : tolong lah….

GOODBYE

My two weeks vacation in my hometown is over. Now its time to pack the baggage and get my arse to Jakarta.

Nanti dah sampai Jakarta nak wat entry pasai raya taon nih.. hehe. The best raya ever kot. Just wait and see.

Owh… Saja nak tunjuk.. Me and him.

Haha.. Secocok tak??

paperKELIP : Love you babe.. keh3.

WADDAFILLETFU!!!

I am 21 and I am not 10 years old little girl,I know what is bad and what is the right, I know my status and I know how to behave. I know how to fit in a situation, I know how to control myself, and I know how to react, Iknow who I am, I know what to do and what I can’t do. I know I know I know. Please don’t be too overprotective, please don’t be too exaggerate. I am not 10, 17, 19 years old little girl.

The reason why I break up with him who must not be named before is because of you, because you said you don’t like him, him and him… Because you said so, I just do what you told me. And this time, please don’t make me do what I done before. I just love him, and I can’t do it.

Don’t worry about my exam, my result, my study, if I fail that means I am not study not because he make, but me. I will try all my best to study as proper as possible, plus, last semester, my result is better and better than last semester, I will try my best to get better, best result. Seriously, your overprotected behavior getting on my last nerve, I respect you with all my heart and I love you as you are my brother, it just make me mad sometime.

I know you worry about me, my study, yeah I know. Abang manalah tak sayang adik perempuan kan? But this time, you should really know, I am old enough to be a little girl, who always nagging, make you made my homework, follow you, reported you to abah. I am a lady now, big enough to differentiate between can and can’t.

Anyway, thanks to all your concern, your overprotective, I really appreciate you. Please don’t make me feel uncomfortable. You can ask my housemates if you want to know how’s my life in Jakarta, my social life. I am all clean, never went out with male friends, never went out late at night. Just hanging out with my housemates and girlfriends, dekat-dekat rumah jer. Tengok-tengok wayang, makan-makan, tu pon lepas exam, bila elaun masuk. Kalau tak duk umah main ngan harlequin. Seriously, you can ask them if you are too worry about me. Haihh chincha??

paperKELIP : When you have an overly overprotected brother, then you will know how I feel.

BEAST

I am the ugliest beast on earth, the meanest and the most cruel one…

And no beauty wants to be close to me..

 

THE RHYTM OF HISTORY

Penah tak korang bercinta, jatuh cinta, cinta monyet? I have once and I want to write it here. Nak meluahkan perasaan yang tak penah aku blow off kat sape-sape pon.

Well puppy love. Sape tak penah kan kecik-kecik dulu poyo-poyo suke kat orang kan. Suke je lah, nak bercinta haram mane lah reti time tu.

Bila dah besar siket form 5, adalah sorang mamat ni pindah masuk skol aku, kawan ngan dia pehtu lama-lama bercinta (ye ke bercinta?). Whatever. Lama gak lah kan bercinta ngan mamat 2 tahun kot, macam-macam kejadian berlaku. And everyday he will write a latter to me, and of course lah I have to write it back. Then abes SPM, aku masuk matriks, so on and on. Finally I realize that how stupid and childish I am to love someone unwillingly. Yeah he maybe love me, but I dont know if I love him, kinda confuse. Then I ask him to break up. Lama-lama aku putus dengan dia. Of course he refused at the first place. Am I a bit cruel here? Yeah maybe. So what goes around come around kan. Of course, I was dump by my second bf, and since that day I just want to be single. Single is cool right, I love it.

Then, I meet a new guy, which is my old friend, or my enemy. He is nice guy and he love me but then yesterday something happen. My fault kot.  He said that I am not ready to love someone and want to break it up. If that what you want boy, go a head. I don’t think I can handle this anymore. I hate it. I am an anti of love or love anti me. I don’t care.

If you read this, I just want you to know that I really love you, really and this is not fake. I maybe a cold hearted person, manusia takde perasaan, a dumbass, pain in the as*, an idiot. I know you love me, yeah I love the fact that you love, but sometime this love is choking me when I turn back to the past, I am afraid to be love. Okay I afraid. And when I am afraid, my feedback is absolutely negative. All negative, takde satu pon yang positive. Even I love you, I still afraid to be love.

Owh crap, I think be a single is cooler than be afraid to be love right. So what is the right choice? Jadilah single sampai ke tua, haha. Idiot fatehah.

paperKELIP : You don’t care right. Well just don’t care.