UNBREAK BREAK... I MEND IT BACK...

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.Recently, I broke my heart.

.and I don’t know if I can face myself again. XD

This is stupid, why should I feel like this. Ironic. Redundant.

I did one mistake and I have to pay it back, 3 times.

It happen again and again and again.

Repeat and repeat

I do believe that I am not lucky enough so I will stay away, back off.

Eh awak... awak dengan perangai berlagak awak tu boleh pergi meninggal. Mohon ye. Sila pergi meninggal.

Awak dengan sikap SHOW OFF awak tu saya persilakan terjun dalam lubang jamban dan sila flush diri sendiri.

Awak dengan sajak dan puisi awak tu... awak ingat awak poetic sangat lah eh... okay. Asal awak tahu yang sebenarnya saya tak pernah faham metafora yang awak cuba sampaikan.

Mungkin saya ini kurang cerdik apatah lagi cerdas... Tapi sekurang-kurangnya, saya faham lah jugak behind the words lagu-lagu Artic Monkeys.

Awak dengan janji-janji awak tu, eh bukan janji. Awak dengan kata-kata awak tu, boleh lah... boleh lah... saya kasi awak balik. Awak boleh simpan.

Untung saya seorang yang poker face.

Maaf lah awak... Penggunaan bahasa saya tak sesuai dengan personality awak. Saya memang macam ni. Dan doalah banyak-banyak agar saya tak 'Turn my words into action, if not you are definitely dead. fatality'

Mohon pergi meninggal.

ALWAYS...

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and there is always a friend who know everything even he is far away from me. He is only exception. Because I don’t usually have a male friend as close as him.

He just know that I am sad over something else even I try to cover it up by saying that I am sad because of other thing.

He is a bff... not a bf and I am glad you are the only XY friend that I can trust. I love you as a friend.

Congratulation for your engagement even I congratulated you before.

paperKELIP : STOP! trying to introduce me to your brother already lah weyh!! I want a husband 10 years older lah. wkwkwkwk XD

paperKELIP lagi : Not that I don’t like your brother... but I love being single.

BELIEF...

At this age... I should think more about a marriage like my other friends. But thanks to you my ex, I never believe in marriage.

Not like I against it, or whatever... Today I learn a new lesson, you can trust and love someone, but you have to put 1% doubt in him/her because when he/she betray you, you will not feel so hurt or feel the pain. Hey... love yourself more before you love other. When you love yourself, you won’t hurt yourself aite.

Okeyh... I kinda love myself when I am all single. And I realise, I am not forever alone, I have myself, I have friends and the best thing that I have is my Faith, my Belief to my God Allah swt. HE is always by our side aite?

Yes I love be a single woman. I am still young what. I should explore this world. I should be a surgeon. I should go travel and do charity. I should be me. I shouldn’t be sad because of a man. That’s stupid. I am cool the way I am.

Today I just realise that I love being single very very much. I love it.

paperKELIP : I miss you mom, every single day and night... Every breathe... I love you. I love you. I love you. My precious mom.

WHAT THE EFFING IS JAMAL?!

I have a super super senior, his name is Kamal... Because he is supper super senior, of course lah he is a coass and will get a title as doctor in 3 months.

Okay, macam ni ceritanya... senior aku yang seorang ini seorang coass, dan sudah tentu dia ada twitter and facebook. Hey, this is their era, who does not have them is sooooo 2008. Teehee.

Disebabkan masing-masing dah ada twitter dan facebook dan semakphone yang canggih-canggih untuk berhubungan, maka senior aku ini akan menghapdate status facebook beliau atau tweet yang lebih kurang begini... “Malam ni aku Jamal” “Yeah Jamal time” “Masa untuk Jamal” dan sebagainya.

Disebabkan aku ni noob, dah lah noob, pastu suka buat assumption yang bukan-bukan... Aku pon assume yang senior aku ni live a double live. Siang dia jadi KAMAL dan malam dia akan jadi JAMAL. Macam Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde gitu. Double personality disorder or Split personality disorder (eh bukan sama ke?)

Bangang tak assumption aku ni? Bangang kan. Yes, itulah makanya bertanya.

My curiosity became wider and wider. Yelah, tak mungkin dia lead a double live , kalau tak dah lama orang akan anggap dia psikosis. Jadi pada suatu hari, dengan innocent nya aku pun betanya “Jamal itu, apekah?”

owh... itu ke Jamal?! aku dah bantai LOL dengan dahsyatnya. Punyalah aku assume benda yang merepek-repek. CIS! I am a real novice, a noob...

JAMAL = JAga MALam okeyh.

Orang Indonesia ni memang suka singkat-singkat kan bahasa dorang. Sebab nama senior aku ni Kamal, so aku pun telah membuat andaian yang tak logik. Kalau nama dia bukan Kamal, aku rasa aku buat bodoh je, tak assume benda pelik-pelik. Dasar noob.

Untuk Kamal, sorry bro, aku ni memang suka berfikir benda fantasy-fantasy. HoHoHo.

Menurut kawan aku yang tengah koas dekat KOJA, mereka akan berJAMAL mula jam 3 petang (kot) sampai jam 4 pagi.

ok dah... BYE シ

Dr. LOVE MUCH ???

I never understand this people... The one who come to me when they have problem with their couple, or ask me how to pikat a girl or boy they like. Yadeiii, if I know such thing, I will never end up as forever alone. No?

Funny lah you guys nih... I am very very immature about this thing even I had a relationship before, and it ended more briefly than Kim Kardashian wedding. lol.

So... why the heck korang susah payah tanya aku bila aku sendiri pon fail dan noob dalam bab-bab relationship ni. Paling-paling aku jawab, “Dia lawam tackle je lah” atau “Kawan je dulu, kalau rasa berkenan, move to phase 2 (dan aku sendiri pon tak tahu phase 2 tu ape)” muahaha.

Dan kalau korang ada masalah dalam kene REJECT kaw-kaw oleh orang yang korang minati, I’d say korang enjoy je that moment kena reject, that’s what we called LIFE. Saya pon selalu kena reject.

Dan sebenarnya, course yang saya amek ni bukan belajar cara-cara nak memikat awek/boyfriend, mengubat hati yang duka lara pon jauh sekali. Saya hanya tahu kalau orang tu sakit hati berdasarkan mata dia warna kuning, perut dia membesar, atau kulit dia warna kuning dan mungkin bila orang tu buang air besar, your stool is clay in colour, warna abu-abu, kelabu.

Sekian terima kasih.